reminder

i'm going to write a short note to remind myself.... of what i want in life.

i had been feeling rather lost lately- no aims, no goals, just tired from lab and school work. it's easy to get into the pace of things, go with the flow, and forget of what you truely want and hope for in life. i didnt have much time to sit back, relax, reflect on what i have been doing. right now, i'm sacrificing the time to study for my gen physio test. rargh. oh wells, i think i need to get my focus, whatever focus i had, back again. i feel that i had been neglecting a lot of things, my friends (sorry!!!:( i promise i'll catch up with you guys soon:S) and my daydreams.

As a child, i was the lost-in-my-own-world-dreamy sort of kid. my parents used to nag; stop dreaming, start studying and do the things you need to do. (parents can really think of many things to do.)

life science- is it the place i want to be? i'm in lab most of the time, working hard to get my results (my shRNA!!!! :(:(:(). I can do it, i can make it a career choice- but will i enjoy it? As i sink into lab life, i realise how comfortable it is to just go on, to continue to masters, to be a researcher.

BUT i doubt i'll feel satisfied with my life.

I was reading JK Rowling's speech at Harvard's commencement. (you can read it here.) She mentioned somewhere that she worked for amnesty international, and a strong emotion surged in me- Yes i want to work there as well. I always wanted to do this sort of things, but never had the strength to start. I don't want to work in a lab, I want to work in the physical front line of issues, not in a lab searching for a cure. yes, that's noble, but not me.

what do i do from here?
start small. look for something like amnesty to focus my attention on. read articles about issues.

it's so easy for me to lose my focus and get lost into the midst of things.