study-land

Today, like yesterday, was terrible; hardly any progress at all.

TWO wasted days! I read the first chapter of Sandman, blog-surfed, facebook-whored and before I knew it, it was time to meet Jane to go Vivo! - for the shortest shopping trip ever. hee.

I must really change my attitude. I want to do honours in life science. I MUST get into honours. NUS has quite interesting modules for LSM4xxx, namely marine biology and some animal behaviour one. Life science is quite competitive and everyone around is working so hard. I bet it'll be really hard to do well. A cap of 3.5 (4.0 would be a bonus!), is that too much to ask for?

Time to hit on remote sensing. heck. I have not printed the notes yet - how screwed can I get.

Stats- I dislike you so so much, but I can't afford to ignore you any longer. Why can't you be interesting and understandable?! AND I must meet you again in level2. Why why why!!! Why must you be in life science?!

Ooooo... my brother just cooked, for the first time, garlic rice, fried eggs and some random vegetable dish. It's actually edible (and smells good too)! Too bad I don't have a camera so that I can take a shot of the boy's very first attempt. Can't wait to change my phone to the sony ericsson's cybershot.

For fun:) found this on my friend's blog

200 things I've done (in bold) at least once the past 19 years:
200 things i wish i could do (in italics) at least once in my life:

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the great pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the northern lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of leaning tower of pisa
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars (loved it)
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up the night sky through a telescope (saw Jupiter!!- and its moons)
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment.
28. Had a food fight (facebook?)
29. Bet on a winning horse
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill
31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow (the fake one at the kid's zoo?)
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have (not sure whether it is considered love.)
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark (shark’s fin?)
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship (totally boring)
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a cheque
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ... more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a seizure
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money from on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph (till i get my license... hehehe)
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild (Dangerous! Any Biodiversity student should know this.)
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet (eeks!)
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166.Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes (sounds interesting..)
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ... and gotten 86’ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184.Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language (Chinese! )
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream (once but not now)
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196. Dyed your hair
197. Been a DJ
198. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199. Written your own role playing game
200. Been arrested

OKKK time to hit on RSGO! :)

verbal vomit

I can't stand how this place is being run. Most of the times I hide it, placing a font of apathy and ignorance. But it is hard to keep simmering inside; it leads to random bursts of anger and snappishness that one regrets in the end.

Can't wait to leave and fly free.

I realise that I cannot study last minute, my mind will drift, to the trees, the clouds, and random thoughts round me. Like yesterday, for example, after I woke up from my 2 hours long nap, the clouds started turning dark grey and gloomy. There was frequent lightning and thunder, and the wind started howling strongly. I started to stare (instead of my textbook) at the leaves that were shivering in anticipation for the rain to fall, the beautiful orange red ladies in the air dancing in a strange yet familiar choreography and soon, the silver threads thrown from the woolly sky. Falling, falling, falling. Such a hypnotic sight and comforting feeling, being blanketed by the cool, rushing wind and watching nature's spectacular performance. I can sit there for eons just watching, admiring...

How hard it is, at this present age, to be able to sit still and admire time as it goes by. This reminds me of this interesting song I heard not long ago. It is sang by Sandi Thom and it is called "I wish I was a punk rocker"(with flowers in my hair).

[Chorus:]
Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair
In '77 and '69 revolution was in the air
I was born too late into a world that doesn't care
Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair

When the head of state didn't play guitar
Not everybody drove a car
When music really mattered and when radio was king
When accountants didn't have control
And the media couldn't buy your soul
And computers were still scary and we didn't know everything

[Chorus]

When pop stars still remained a myth
And ignorance could still be bliss
And when god saved the queen she turned a whiter shade of pale
My mom and dad were in their teens
And anarchy was still a dream
And the only way to stay in touch was a letter in the mail

[Chorus]

When record shops were still on top
And vinyl was all that they stocked
And the super info highway was still drifting out in space
Kids were wearing hand me downs
And playing games meant kick arounds
And footballers still had long hair and dirt across their face

[Chorus]

I was born too late into a world that doesn't care
Oh I wish I was a punk rocker with flowers in my hair

-end-

hmm. Yesteryears image was a punk rocker. I wonder what defines our generation now, it seems to me like our generation is a mishmash of images copied from almost every age known to mankind. No true identity, just like a patchwork. Versatile.

organic chemistry

Oh how I love doing organic chemistry (AT TIMES); the mechanisms, flow of electrons seems oh-so logical, the molecules like puzzles waiting to be broken. It seems like I am totally suited for science; I enjoy the warm comfort of the logic and systematic workings, the fuzzy happiness when I get the correct answer. Such a black-and-white subject in a grey world. I just dislike memorising the stuff to use. There are so many other modules I would like to attempt but I'm restricted by the system. One thing for sure, I'm going to take the animal module in the future. I may want to be a forest ranger in the future, traveling around the world observing animals. Hee. The thought is exciting indeed :). I shall decide whether to change to psychology next year, but currently I feel quite happy doing biology. So many roads that i can't decide. Can someone tell me the way? Or perhaps it is more fun to poke and probe around - I can learn new things too. I feel like reading Darwin's species of origin after taking the biodiversity, the theory of evolution seems a bit dodgy. That shall be the second book to read after The Screwtape letters. OH and Sandman!

11 more days

oh my. What am I doing online? heh. I remember my JC teacher telling me that uni would be a breeze after experiencing JC life, but I don't think so. Perhaps I'm not working hard enough and people want their grades more than I do, hence I'm not getting my "ideal" marks. Well, in that case I have to study really hard these next few days to catch up. By the way, uni libraries are fantastic for studying.
I love the feeling in the library, there are so so many books! I get high when I think of the amount of knowledge they represent; I would love to read every single one of them and pore through each individual section. (totally geek sign hehe) There are books on any subject you can think of, from the obscure and weird to the popular/typical kinds. The only section that seems to be missing from the library is the fiction section, but I'm not complaining. The national library (or borders/ kino ) is sufficient for that.
So far I have paid $1.50 in library fines due to overdue books. argh. That's my only gripe about libraries - I'm always late in returning the books. Speaking of which, I still owe NBL about $10. heh.
Anyway, there is this really fantastic up and coming musical that just rose from Broadway called Spring Awakening.
What can you guess about the story from the title? I shall leave it to you to figure out. :) The music in this musical is not what you typically find from most musicals, it consists of mainly string instruments and a band (drums+guitar). The strings gives the entire musical a very different feel from the others. It plays a very important role and emphasizes *Spring*. The youthfulness, freshness, and at times melancholy, angsty, romantic, reflective and always very lyrical. I love the sound of the violin and cello. I'm not very good with words so I can't really describe it. Listen to the music and you'll get the point! What a talented composer.

first words

Why did i decide to start a blog? Again. If my memory does not fail me, this should be the third or fourth attempt on my part to start a blog.
Does this reflect my inability to focus on something for long?
Or my discomfort in expressing myself?
Maybe it is both...
Cheers then, to the longevity of this blog! I hope i will maintain this blog as long as i can.
Write, share, reflect. That's basically my aim of writing in a blog.