I'm like a waiter walking on a tightrope, balancing 2 dishes. I have to drop one, if not I will surely drop both and fall together with them. One dish is for a table with many people, some VIPs. The other is just for... selfish me. If I drop the dish-for-many-people, I will definitely get fired. My life would suffer a (major?) setback.

If the dish for selfish me is shattered, who would care? Perhaps the dish for many people would be a better option then.

Is this a test? If it is, I think I’m failing badly. (Like that Vietnamese test)=)

I need to focus on my studies, and my coming test, but I can’t concentrate. And I can’t sleep. (Perhaps it is due to my 10 hours marathon the previous night)

Am I thinking too much as usual, making things seem so complicated when it is actually so simple?

Am I complicating issues with every step I make?

It is so much easier to talk about what you believe in than to show it through actions. I truely want to act in accordance to my freaking value system but sometimes I slip, badly. And now, I just want to delete, cancel and trash it.

love it when it rains. love it when it rains at night.

wonderful colours~





The pink flower is like imperfectly beautiful. Is there such a thing in society's eyes? I feel a sense of loss, sadness and wonder whenever I see it. Perhaps on its own it is imperfect, but together with something it regains its orginal beauty. Or maybe it is even better this way.